I want to lose 2 stone… 28lbs
Day 5:- Negative consequences…
I’ve gained weight, become unhappy, and lost control. I’m more anxiety ridden now. So nothing good really.
Day 6:- Weight gain
I have, I’ve gained… 4st11lbs ( 67lbs ) at my biggest (since starting to binge eat)… I was slightly underweight to start with. Now I’m a stone over weight.
:D this made me giggle loads !!
I talk to a friend who had anorexia, but even then I don’t think she understands. I told my mum a little about eating too much, I just don’t think that anyone really understands…
Although I do have a cousin who is morbidly obese who has binge eating disorder… I think she’d be good to speak to :)
Infact I’m gonna see her this weekend!
I think my challenge for the forthcoming week (as well as walking at least 3 miles per day) is to stop eating supper - unless really hungry …
I want her hair!!
Steps I’m taking during the challenge to stop myself binge eating?
These seem positive steps to me :)
I started because I’d dieted for over a year (mostly healthily), and my body was telling me eat the nutrients I needed, by making it harder for me to ignore the foods I had which stopped me losing weight. I think as well I myself was too strict by denying foods which I should have allowed myself as a treat instead of a ‘banned food, which was bad and would make me put on weight instantly’…
I continue to do so - mostly because of habit. Somewhat so because of self-sabotage. I think my mind is terrified by the thought of becoming the skinny girl who got pressure marks from sitting on hard chairs - again…
Its silly because I know deep down that eating when hungry and eating a high proportion of healthy food in my diet, is the only real way to stay healthy.
I think the pressure of eating like ‘normally’ has made me binge. Hear me out…
I went through eating too much and being obese, to a year later eating little and being underweight. Now I’m overweight, as friends, family and myself became obsessed with the idea that I should be healthy and happy.
Hello fasting, binging and purging. I managed to give up the purging as I feared for my teeth… And to be honest I was poor at it at best.
Unfortunately I still binge. This uncontrolable nature of it upsets me…
Today is the first day where I stopped focussing on snacks, set meals, times of my meals, eating hideously healthily, avoiding food groups (dairy and fish).
Instead I focussed merely on eating when I was hungry and not thinking that snacks were essential. It’s the first time where I’ve actually not binged in a few weeks.
AMAZINGLY PROUD OF MYSELF :)
I first developed it at work when I was 18, I’d lost a lot of weight and someone made about 24 biscuits, which weren’t 100% correct, so the residents (I used to work in a nursing home) didnt have them… Anyway long story short I ate the lot, I put 7lbs on. That motivated me to restrict even more… So I spose I’ve had it for nearly 3 years ashamedly. When I began gaining weight I used to allow myself friday off for food I wanted to eat…
This is actually one of my biggest motivators, knowing you’re special because you’re one of the few who are fit. It’s like being a unicorn! That being said, everyone should be valued equally no matter what their size or fitness level, because there’s a whole lot more to people than just their bodies. :)
I <3 WHOEVER WROTE THAT… I WANT TO BE A UNICORN!!
:) this made me smile ! Beauty is merely a state of mind!